Saturday, March 29, 2008

Happy Birthday Alvin!

Happy 21st Birthday Alvin! Well, in case you didn't know, χρόνια πολλά is the Greek equivalent for Happy Birthday. It is pronounced 'Chronia polla'. It means 'many years', which implies 'may you have a long life'. I don't usually feature people on my blog, so this is a rare occasion huh. :)

Though I've only known you for barely two months, its been plenty of fun, hasn't it? :) Next time must join me and get the others to go out for 'emo' walks at night, which will be even more fun once winter sets in! What could be better than a cold and emo walk down by the creek? Or better still, lake? ;) I'm not joking, I'm serious... And I'm perfectly sane, or I would prefer to believe that I am. Haha.

Once more, Happy 21st Birthday :)

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Melancholic-Phlegmatic

I just did a personality test at 4.30am. Don't ask me why. I just did so. While I do enjoy the novelty of doing such tests without taking them seriously, this particular test struck home. To all those who have been wondering for a long while, the results of this personality test I took is an almost perfect answer to who I am. In fact, it is a better description of myself than I could ever craft.

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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Beyond Hope

If Hope was that faint gleam on the horizon; yet a thousand or even ten thousand steps in that direction brings you no closer, one should really wonder - what lies beyond it? Why do I pursue after it so doggedly, despite being let down every time?

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Monday, March 24, 2008

Sydney Trip

The Sydney pictures are so waaay long overdue, but here they are anyway.


Cam-whoring by Sydney Harbour




Guy's room. I took the upper level single bed and filmed the threesome below was blissfully ignorant of the covert activities going on under the cover of darkness below.

Roast chicken duck and pork!

Yea!!

Spicy Korean Toufu

Western Dinner by Sydney Harbour



Krispy Kremes








The famed Sydney Harbour



The Posers by Sydney Harbour... :)

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Friday, March 21, 2008

Lake Burly Griffin

Emokid crying by the lake
Me contemplating life at dusk by Lake Burly Griffin

:)

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Prayer of the Long-Sufferer

A meaningful poem/prayer that I stumbled across last year. Whether you agree or not, it is a timely reminder that the weakness embodied within us is not there for no apparent reason.

I asked God for strength, that I might achieve.
I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey.

I asked for health, that I might do greater things.
I was given infirmity, that I might do better things.

I asked for riches, that I might be happy.
I was given poverty, that I might be wise.

I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men.
I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God.

I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life.
I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.

I got nothing I asked for - but everything I had hoped for.
Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.

I among all men, I am most richly blessed!

- Anonymous

Delicate Balance

Balance; a single point on a line of infinite points where equilibrium is reached. Veer a little to the left or right, and the whole system spirals into infinity or worse still, comes crashing down like a card house. It is a notion revered by philosophers such as Aristotle as the pinnacle of perfection. Aristotle's Golden Mean, for one, proclaims that every virtue lies sandwiched between two vices. For example, courage runs between cowardice and foolhardiness; modesty is bounded between shamelessness and bashfulness.

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Monday, March 17, 2008

Laughter in the Rain

It's been another stormy day. Yet another day of being drenched. Yet another day of shivering in the autumn chill.

Isn't it tempting to shed one's tears amidst the storm? The mingling of streaming tears and raindrops offers a veil between oneself and the world. Few, if any would guess that those rolling droplets on your cheeks were actually tear drops.

When masks eventually unbound, it can be an ordeal at times to navigate life with a relatively frail social footing and little support to keep my balance. Yet I manage to get by, somehow. I've burnt my bridges and turned my back on my kind in exchange for something hitherto unknown. I've realized that a new dawn does not necessarily promise a better day. Was I blinded by naivety or blind hope itself, perhaps? Whatever the case, the answer is irrelevant, but only the outcome matters.

Yet beyond the tears, there lingers on hope for a brighter day of joy. For that, I laugh in the midst of the storm.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Shoes

What's it like wearing a new pair of shoes? A seemingly ill-fitting pair. A pair that tends to leave your feet in a state of raw blisters. There are only to possible outcomes: either the shoe breaks to accommodate the foot or the foot responses to such changes by developing calluses.

Hang on a minute, there are other alternatives.

Throw it away??


Nah, if I actually did so I'll have to walk around barefooted. Traversing the wilderness alone on barefoot is not the most appealing of ideas. I've lost count of the years ever since I wandered in here, to dwell on the fringes of society; to be seen but not heard; to despair and be resigned to fate. Oh, the masks needed to slip unnoticed among the people! I can only hazard a guess of people's reaction to the truth.

The cacophony of life rings loud indeed.

Sigh

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Congrats

Congrats to my dearest sis who scored 12 A1s for her SPM examinations. With all your 'hard work' and 'effort' you did very well! :D

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Home

I want to go back home! Like NOW!

Friday, March 7, 2008

Change

I think that I think too much at times. At times, my mind has a tendency to verge onto improbable postulations and unnecessary pondering. By and by, there are constants which will always remain, well, constant. That simply means, at the end of the day, some things just won't change. Tales of rolling beds of roses over here which people conjured up seem to be more elusive than ever.

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Sunday, March 2, 2008

Orientation Week

The Orientation Week that never was. At least, that was how the week went by for me personally. Orientation week stretched from the 18th till the 24th of February. I did jump into some activities, not without some reservations and less-than-applaudable enthusiasm. Instead, I opted to spend the week with a bunch of people who consisted mostly of Singaporeans. I tell you, they are damn kiasu people ah! Just joking la... If anything, my brief stint in INTEC (my college) back in 2007 affirmed my belief that Malaysians have no claim to a higher moral plane when it comes to kiasuism.

Australian Flag at Parliament

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Saturday, March 1, 2008

Canberra

It has been over a fortnight since I arrived here in Canberra. I arrived here on the 13th of February. It was a journey brimming of apprehension and hope. There was apprehension as I was leaving home for a foreign land the very first time in my life. Leaving the security of family and friends and to a certain extent, my homeland proved to be a combo that was tough to swallow. Swallow I did, but not without shedding any tears. Yet there was hope of new doors opening; a clean slate promising to erase the screw ups of yesterday. The end of one chapter marks the beginning of the next. So turns a page...

Welcome to Canberra, Australia

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